Forgive me father for I have Sinned.

So I have sinned, and honestly I did not feel bad while I was at it, and once I realised what I did I felt bad for not feeling bad. Then the words from this Indian movie echoed in my head; a person when committing a sin enjoys it, but then he repents and promises not to do it again. The act becomes more frequent until the person decides to not feel bad. At once something hit me. Have I decided to not feel bad? I didn't want to be destined to an eternity of shame. Well tbh when you are in one of those phases all the wrong things come to your mind, so the next thought that came to me (heads up to all the enlightened atheists out there, I apologise for having faith) was this thing I heard at a religious gathering, the scholar talked about how God refuses to have you as his servant and then damnation is your fate. Ouch! Sounds a bit harsh don't you think? 
Any way, I refuse to take it. As long as I am alive I guess there's still room for improvement. So here I am with a new year resolution to top every other new year resolution. I will ask God for forgiveness, and work on self control. Good Luck Hassan! You should try it to, if any one's listening that is, if you don't believe in  a higher power then tell your self you're sorry, Iqbal does believe the route to God is inside you.  Get rid of those little vices that drive you insane who cares if they are socially acceptable or not, if your conscience doesn't accept it, then don't settle for less, you could be happier if you just tried.